quarter life crisis

Well, another year older. First, thanks to all of you who blew up my Facebook and phone all day with the birthday love! Now, before I say what I am about to say let me just preface it all by saying... I know I am only 23. I know I have my whole life ahead of me. I know that I am still young, but just give me a moment. 

Yes, I am just 23, I am still young and do have my whole life ahead of me, but why is it, that this particular birthday has me feeling especially lame, unaccomplished and just plain discouraged. I know that "life is all in what you make of it" but, I feel like I am having a quarter-life-crisis, which I thought I already had when I turned 20 and bought this: maybe my crisis is still continuing?! Uh-oh.

Maybe its just the fact that everyone seems to always get so excited about birthdays, and to me..it's just another year. Mostly, probably because life since I have settled into the daily grind of the real world has seemed lack luster and blah. Whatever the reason may be, I am going to count my blessings, think of all that I have accomplished in my short 23 years of life,  not everything that I haven't done and I am going to continue to fight the urge to buy something expensive and make rash life decisions. 

So my birthday plans for the evening. Enjoy some cake with the roommate and my parents, and do laundry! I wasn't kidding when I said that I really don't enjoy birthdays.  Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the love from my friends and family, just not the birthday part necessarily.... I'm excited to see what kind of cake is awaiting me at home though! The roommate asked me what my favorite kind of cake was so I told her "FUNFETTII!!! or chocolate cake with peanut butter icing, pineapple upside down cake, red velvet cake, or chocolate cake with brown butter icing, or white cake,  or yellow cake, ice cream cake...I really like cake!" (that could be a really good childrens book..."If you give an Asian a birthday" it could go along with the 'If You Give a Mouse a Cookie' book series!)

"Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do." - Pope John XXIII

-Ash